What goes around, comes around.

It has been said that how you treat other people is how others will treat you. It's karma.

Well, what you give is what you will get in return. So, could you please stop judging, criticising, and insulting others as if you were perfectly perfect? Trust me, if you do, some 'sweet' day, others will intentionally do the same to you, or maybe even worse. Wei, nobody's perfect.

Karma will only be a mother-fucker if you were. That's it. Simple right? You do good, you'll get good, and vice versa.

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M.O.R.O.N


it's me. that's what i feel about myself. 

-no title-

i need to run and hide in my world so far, where all fairy tales and dreams come true, and your laughter fills each day in my world, well, my perfect world.

God's gift to me.

People say love comes and goes, but i say let the truth be known...


We have several types of love; for our parents, for our family, and friends, but there is a gentle love that i call my best friend. 


i've been fortunate enough to love or i thought it was, until i met girls that showed me what best friends is. 
they taught me how to laugh, cry, and show me how it feels to have emotions again.


you see, they gave me something I was missing -and that was me. 


I thank them for I will never forget how wonderful it was to be loved again.

starting over..

I’m trying to find something to base my life upon, something in this strange world that goes on and on.


As the years go by and time fades away, what used to be "good days" are now filled with dismay.


Tomorrow comes, and then again, it goes, and my ambition to become something more, grows and grows.


Around the corner, yet miles away, the life I want now gets closer each day.


All I've ever wanted was something to live for because I don’t want to be this little person anymore.


I’ve been basing my life upon what others think. I wish I could go back and redo everything, every time an eye would blink.


I've fought to become who I am and what I want to be. I have to remind myself that one day, I will be free, yes, free from the rules I followed as a child when everything was a game and life was so mild.


Now times have changed and I realize nothing is fair and sometimes it seems like nobody even cares. It’s like no one pays attention to what I feel is best for me and what I think about the way some things should be.


I understand now, that I’m pretty much on my own and I know a lot of what I can do will never be known.


All the time, I think about everything I can’t say, what I have to keep in. By doing this, my thoughts only get more complicated and deepen.


Soon I hope to find out who I am, and what I am meant to become. I want to know where I’m going. I don’t need to be reminded of where I came from.

fuck.

well, i guess im fucked again.

fuckityfuckfuckfuck. 

u think i dont give a fuck about that? u're fucking wrong because i do.

fuck! i shouldn't fucking trust u as a fucking friend before this.

now i know, u're a fucking liar. 

what the fuck..??

motherfucker dumbfuck! 

fuck you very much.

im cutting my heart out. ouch. it hurts.

im sorry for hurting you like the way i did.
and im sorry for every hurtful thing i said to you.
we know the fight will never last, and thats why id like to say im sorry for everything i put you through.
it kills me when we fight, and scares me as well.


and despite the heartache and crap you put me through, i forgive you.
despite the anger and pain i have in my life, i forgive you.
despite all the tears that fall from my eyes, i forgive you.


as much as we argue, and as much as we fight... i really do love you.

be tough.

3 minggu je lagi.

sabar ye, dhia.

erm. idea jahat dah datang. patut ke cakap camni- seminggu lebih je lagi, dhia. sabar ye.

oke. tak payah fikir. serabut otak je.

baik fikir lagi 2 minggu temankan k.za restock shawl (^__^)




p/s:lebam dengar lagu secrets.

i never told you.

I miss those blue eyes, how you kissed me at night, i miss the way we sleep, like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile. i miss the way we breathe


But i never told you what i should have said, no i never told you, i just held it in. and now i miss everything about you, i can't believe that i still want you, after all the things we've been through, i miss everything about you, without you


I see your blue eyes every time i close mine. you make it hard to see where i belong to when i'm not around you. it's like i'm not with me


But i never told you what i should have said, no i never told you, i just held it in, and now i miss everything about you, i can't believe that i still want you. after all the things we've been through, i miss everything about you, without you




p/s:
** i love faking the fucking as much as i love this song. both mean a lot for me.

should i?.

after all that happened, should i forgive them?this question fucked up in my head for quite a long time.

i've made up my mind today.

everyone should be forgiven, no matter what or how big their mistakes are, and no matter how hurt i am.

aku tak mencarut, oke?.

**title tu takde kaitan pun dengan entri ni.**

recalling memories that hurt me through and through.


fell like im drowning in the sea of fakes when  all i do right now is pretending that im okay, im not missing you, i can stand on my own without you by myside.


u never know im dying inside knowing that you're happy with her, not me.

tak payah title.

sial. bosan nak mampus.

2008: he told me that he already had a girlfriend

think i dont need to tell you when i wrote this fucking post. well, you can read it yourself. yeah, true, it's still new but it was before i met him.


to be true, aku memang tak boleh lupakan dia sebelum ni and aku harap dia akan cari aku.  hey, im not fucking kidding you. 


after all, yup, dia memang cari aku. and im happy with that. 


in fact, aku sendiri tak pasti whether dia betul-betul cari aku, or he's looking for something else.


fuck!

kau tipu aku?

aku pun tak tau cerita sebenar.

tapi aku rasa kau tipu aku. 

or mata aku yang salah pandang. aku pun tak tau. 

tapi kalau kau tipu aku, aku cuma nak tau kenapa. 

past, present, future.

how can there be pain in a place where there is so much joy?

our relationship is the most awesome experience in the world. maybe this is why it holds so much sadness and anger. there are so many things that can go wrong.

i've lost him once, and i cant afford to loose him again this time.

if he's reading this, im really, really sorry for making his life suck. i still regret ever doing that.